I'm back in wise visiting some friends, which is great I'm enjoying my time here... but the one person I want to hang out with and be with... just doesn't want to be with me. I call, text, message, comment... and nothing... not even a, "I hope you have a safe trip." It hurts so much... and it won't go away. I hate feeling this way... I hate being depressed over him. He doesn't understand how much I care about him. The night before I left to come down to wise I couldn't sleep... and it's the same feeling I have right now... it's the feeling of knowing he's not the one...

You know I've got to thinking... being a hermit couldn't be all to bad. I mean, of course you'd be all alone in the woods fending for yourself... but look at the good side. It's a peaceful lifestyle, no annoying neighbors, no busy highways, no crazy inlaws you have to deal with, and no power outages! Sure you'd have to learn a hell of a lot of things to survive, but just think how much easier it will be once you learn them. I feel like just driving out to some mountain somewhere leaving my car ont he side of the road climbing this mountain and not stoping until I get to somewhere completely secluded then sleeping on the ground for the first night. The next morning I would start my search for water and food then I would eventually get to building a shelter. Once I have put myself into a rutine of waking up at he crack of dawn and getting food and drinking some water I will build the best shack around! I will have three rooms: the first will be my kitchen and dinning area lol, then I will have my bedroom and changing area, and then the last room with be a bathroom, minus the toilet (that will be out side in the outhouse) haha. I can picture it now... Walking outside of my shack to see nothing but mountains and peace and quiet from everything else in the world... you can hear the birds cherping and branches bracking from who knows what. Yep I wanna become a hermit.

First of all, work sucked! my boss has it out for me... that's what I've come up with hahahaha... all she had me doing all day was going through nasty moldy buckets of stinky flowers... yeah not fun! lol but then I got home and went outside and had fun taking pictures and what not so... my day ended good :)