have you ever been torn? where your heart and soul wants to be one place, but your mind and body work against you and make you do something else. my heart is in one place but my body is here. and it hurts.

when i look in the mirror i see a monster,

staring back at me.

she is ugly, fat, and useless above all.

she is me. i am her.

i cant separate myself from her.

she is my shadow that only goes away in the dark.

as night falls her existence depletes.

but when the sun rises, she haunts and tortures my days again.

i am trapped by this evil monster.

i need someone to rescue me.

i will be stuck here until the kiss of true love sets me free.

then and only then will i be free.

many have tried but noone has succeeded.

i will stay here waiting.

sometimes i wonder about so many things. and while im doing all this thinking about everything thats goin on in my life i realize something... that i really wasnt thinkin about anything