What now? honestly im lost for words. every day i wake up hoping i can get my head straight, do what i have to do and be the grown up adult that i WANNA be. now, i hear that im being accused of something?! why does this sound so much like high school...and why cant people move on with their lives?

What i dont understand is that..i thought we had something special. something that none of us in our crew had in common..and i was always hoping that; that one thing was big enough to keep us together. My most vivid memory is of us crying in the bathroom over people and things that we miss and that wont come back. i honestly feel that i have been the best friend i could have been. nothing more, nothing less. i am who i am, and im sorry that nothing goes right.

I feel that i try soo hard to move on..to grow up and to get my life together. the past couple months have been nothing but alcohol, and nights i dont remember. why does that NOT sound right? yes drinking is fun, but then i realize that i have things; prioties that i am trying to fill and accomplish; and i honestly dont need more stress in my life.

I'm sorry that every 2 weeks something comes up youoff...and once again i cant do anything firight. but if thats the way you feel then let me be. dont call me, txt me or threaten to beat me up. just let it go and we wont be friends.

 

hey guys.. umm not much happenin right now..waiting to leave for connecticut with my friend ashley...! should be funn... train rides gonna be long.. soo ehh w.e

 

 

wont be on much so leave comments and messages and ill get back to a-sap!

 Mwah!!

XXO